The Cocktail Club

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  I thank God for the endless blessings bestowed upon me. All of the love I can muster up to my patient and wonderful mother, and lifelong cheerleader, Deborah Tucker Bodden; and the very best sister a woman could have, Denise Braxton; my gorgeous, patient, and loving husband, Coach Wilson, thanks for your love and support.

  My handsome younger brother, Irvin Kelvin Seguro, and Amber; the two best uncles in the world, Robert and Vaughn Belzonie; aunts, Regina, and Shelia; my loving and supportive family in Belize, Aunt Flo, Aunt Elaine, Therese, my cousins, Patrick, Marsha, and Cassandra, and the rest of my cousins, nephews, nieces, and my entire supportive family, including my awesome older brother, Carlton Anthony Tucker.

  We don’t share the same blood, but I love them like sisters: Monica Hodge, Miranda Moore, Nikki Brock, Karen Williams, Jeness Sherell, Gloria Shannon, Keywanne Hawkins, Desiree Clement, Yolanda Jones, and the rest of those exquisite ladies of Sigma Gamma Rho Sorority Inc. and especially all of my sisters of Gamma Phi Sigma here in Houston, TX.

  I’m blessed to be surrounded by friends who accept me just the way I am. ReShonda Tate Billingsley, thanks for your constant support, listening ear, and unwavering faith in my work. Victoria Christopher Murray, your kindness, giving heart, and willingness to help others are the truth!

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  Special thanks to my agent, Sara, and a world of gratitude to my Strebor family, the dynamic duo Zane and Charmaine, for having faith in my work. Special thanks to the publicity Queens led by Yona Deshommes at Atria/Simon & Schuster who help spread the word about my work. JeCaryous Johnson, I look forward to our new adventure!

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  Pat

  BEFORE

  HAPPY

  HOUR

  1

  PETA

  My life would be much better if I wasn’t screwing two men at the same damn time. I’ve known the root of my problem from day one, but why I couldn’t do right was beyond me. At times, I said to hell with it all, and allowed the chips to fall where they may.

  Lover Number One, Gordon Smith, was worse than a ticking time bomb. Despite this major character flaw, he did it for me. My attraction to him made no sense, but it was what I had to work with. So I handled him with extra care. His crazy behind might have gone postal at any moment. I kept that in mind while we talked on my cell phone.

  “I’m finally about to get in the tub,” I said. The drinks I’d had with dinner earlier helped to relax me a little, but the bath would finish the job. Between work and everything else, my day had been incredibly busy.

  “Oooh, maybe I should come right over,” Gordon responded.

  His copper-colored skin was soft to the touch despite its hard, muscular appearance. He had the dreamiest, light-brown eyes, and a sexy smile with the cutest, little gap between his two front teeth.

  Gordon was real cool, but we weren’t that cool. We were more than friends with benefits, but we were far from serious on my part. I ignored his comment about coming over, and dipped my free hand into the water to gauge the temperature.

  The water felt good, nearly the perfect amount of heat, but not too hot. I could still sit in the tub comfortably.

  After the stressful day I’d had with my mobile boutique customers, I craved relaxation like I needed the air I breathed. I had worked hard to create the perfect setting to unwind in at home. My bathroom walls were painted maroon, so when I dimmed the soft, yellow lights, there was the right hint of darkness.

  A soothing fragrance floated through the air from two massive lavender and vanilla-scented candles that flickered in the corners near the French double doors. Sensuous sounds from some of my favorite slow songs were programmed to repeat on my iPod. The setting was ideal for a quiet night of relaxation.

  “Peta, you still there?”

  “Oh, yeah, uh-huh.”

  “How come you didn’t say nothing when I offered to come through? I could help wash your back.” He chuckled.

  His offer made me a little uncomfortable. Gordon realized I wasn’t alone, and he should’ve known better. When I couldn’t stand the silence that hung between us, I spoke up.

  “Look, Gee, you know we’re good and all, but my daughter is here. I don’t allow strange men to run in and out of my house when she’s home.”

  Gordon sucked his teeth. I predicted that would set him off a little, but I didn’t care. He shouldn’t have gone there.

  “Oh, so now I’m some strange man?” he huffed.

  “You know what I’m saying.”

  Our conversation had gone in a direction that I didn’t need. I rolled my eyes, and braced myself for the fallout.

  “Nah, I don’t, Peta. All I know is, anytime I talk about us hooking up or gettin’ closer, you find some excuse why we can’t. At least not until you feel like blessing me with some of your precious time. That ain’t even cool.”

  I tried to ignore his complaint, but I should’ve known he was gonna press the issue. He should’ve taken my explanation and left it alone. But no, he couldn’t do that.

  “What do you want me to do? I’m not one of those women who introduces her kid to every Tom, Dick, and Harry.” I dropped my robe from my shoulders.

  “Oh, snap! Now I’m some Tom, Dick, and Harry? Damn, that’s real cold, Peta. Real cold. But, I feel ya, though,” he said.

  I rolled my eyes at his theatrics. A fight was the very last thing I needed. It was best to hold my tongue, and let him have his say. My bathwater was almost ready. I had half a bottle of wine, and a good book on standby. Drama was definitely not on the menu for me tonight.

  “Gordon, all I’m saying—”

  “Oh, I hear what you sayin’, ma. Don’t trip!”
he yelled before I could explain myself. “You ain’t gotta clean nothin’ up for me. I’m a man, baby! But on the real, though. We been at this for what, nearly a year now? And I’m still not good enough to meet your shorty? Hell, that’s telling me exactly what I need to know.”

  By “been at this for nearly a year,” he meant an occasional dinner here or there, and of course, the booty call that came in really handy for me. I felt that our arrangement worked. “Gordon, we don’t have to make this into a big thing.”

  He ranted on like he hadn’t heard a word I’d said. He was on autopilot, and there was no way to stop him.

  “Peep this, Peta, I’m real clear now. It’s me, but I’m good now. All this damn time, this body’s been on reserve, and you basically ain’t had no plans for no damn future with me. That’s my bad, though, ma.”

  When Gordon got worked up, he slid back into his street lingo, and I couldn’t reason with him. Once he took that turn, nothing good would come from the conversation. I didn’t get a chance to respond to his claims. Suddenly, something else had grabbed my attention. I was no longer alone. I stooped down, and grabbed my robe.

  “I know you ain’t got no fool up in this house with my daughter up in here.”

  My eyes nearly popped from their sockets at the sound of the intrusion from Lover Number Two.

  “Whoa! Hold up a sec. Is that your baby daddy?” Gordon yelled in my ear. “Oh, now I see what’s really going on!”

  I hated when people called Kyle my “baby daddy.” I didn’t get knocked up after we hooked up or anything like that. Kyle Nixon was my ex-husband. I was married to him for more than five years, so there was a difference. Much to my astonishment, he was in my bathroom, in the flesh. Shock numbed me from head to toe. I felt my spine tighten, as recognition slowly etched into Kyle’s features.

  His mouth hung wide open, and his eyes danced frantically around my empty bathroom. His stare settled on me, as I used the robe to cover my nakedness.

  “Uh-oh. I thought, ummm—” he stammered and stumbled back slightly.

  “What the hell are you doing in my house?” I screamed. I pulled the phone back to my ear. “Hey, listen. I need to run. I’ll call you back.” I didn’t wait for Gordon to respond. I ended the call, and turned my wrath on Kyle’s simple behind. He stood in front of me, looking like a complete ass.

  Kyle wasn’t a bad-looking man. Actually, he was quite handsome. The problem was he knew it. He had flawless, walnut-colored skin. His large, dark, expressive eyes were outlined with the thickest, longest eyelashes ever. As if that weren’t enough, he had a sharp, chiseled jawline with a cleft in his chin. Kyle’s body was also very nice to boot.

  “You are trespassing! You ain’t got no right bombarding your way into my damn house like you paying bills up in here!”

  “Peta, all that is uncalled for. I don’t want no men hanging around my daughter, that’s all. I heard voices up in here, and I didn’t know what was what. You can’t fault a brotha for looking out for what’s his,” he yelled back at me.

  I was so fed up with Kyle and his bogus excuses. He popped up at my house whenever the feeling hit him. It didn’t matter how much I cursed or threatened him, my words seemed to bounce right off of him. He still did whatever the hell he wanted.

  If the sex between us wasn’t hotter now than when we were married, I might’ve been moved to change the locks. Instead, I convinced myself that he needed access to help look after his daughter.

  “Mom, why you fussing at Dad? I asked him to come over.” Our daughter, Kendal, stood in the dimly lit doorway, rubbing her eyes with the backs of her hands.

  “Sweetpea, it’s late. What are you still doing up? You got school in the morning,” My tone softened instantly when I spoke to my daughter. There had never been a cross word between us. She was a great twelve-year-old, and gave me no trouble whatsoever.

  Regardless of how I felt about Kyle, I never spoke badly about him in front of, or to, our daughter.

  “I had a bad dream, and I called Dad. You were tired and trying to relax in your bath. I didn’t wanna bother you. Now you guys are fighting all loud and stuff. And it’s all my fault!” She pouted.

  I released a trapped breath. The frightened look she’d worn so many times made me feel guilty that I had gone off on Kyle. Even though he was wrong, it was painfully clear that our daughter still suffered from our divorce. It made me sick how he babied her, but I decided to let their relationship evolve in its own way.

  “Honey, it’s not your fault; it’s mine,” Kyle explained. “I thought someone was in here trying to do something to your mom, and I kinda pushed my way in. I only did it to make sure she wasn’t being hurt or anything like that.”

  He made me want to throw up. I rolled my eyes at his explanation, but our daughter seemed to eat it up. The love in her eyes as she dreamily gazed at him sent a pang of jealousy through my heart, but it was short-lived. It was quickly replaced by the rage that I still felt toward Kyle.

  “See, Mom, Dad was only trying to look out for you like he used to do when we lived together. You know, like a real family.”

  Kyle’s jaw tensed, and I fought the strong urge to sock him right in it.

  I exhaled and ignored him.

  “Okay, sweetie. Please go back to bed. I didn’t mean to wake you with all the yelling and fussing.”

  Kendal smiled faintly. “Daddy, are you still gonna come up and lay with me for a little while? Huh?”

  “Of course, Princess,” Kyle said.

  Her face lit up with relief. I watched as my ex guided her out of the bathroom. I was still pissed, but I had to let it go if I wanted to reclaim the serenity he had disrupted.

  I rolled my eyes and muttered, “Uuugghh, what’s taking Happy Hour Thursdays so damn long to get here?”

  2

  DARBY

  I rolled my eyes toward the vaulted ceiling as I listened to the angry voices on the phone. My heart raced, thinking about the words these shallow heifers were throwing my way.

  “So, Kelly, you, Renee, and Callie thought this phone call was a good idea?” I hissed.

  Kelly and the other ladies were members of a neighborhood playgroup. They lived in another subdivision close by, but we committed to meeting up so our children could play and hang out at least once a week. At first, I thought the call was about next week’s play date. But, I quickly learned that this was their idea of an intervention of sorts. I listened to each woman plead her case. And the case was against me.

  “For Christ’s sake, Darby. You pull out your flask on the playground!” Kelly said.

  Wishing I had it at that moment, I didn’t respond. I wanted to tell her that my flask and I were the least of her concerns.

  “I’m sorry, but is that against the law, or just against your rules?”

  “We’re not saying the kids can’t play together. We simply don’t think it’s wise for you to come to the playground, if you can’t leave the booze at home,” Renee said.

  What these women didn’t know was that I was just about as tired of them as they were of me. The reason I needed my “mommy juice” was because their simple conversations bored me to tears. If I didn’t have the flask, they wouldn’t want me present.

  “Okay, fine, I won’t bring my juice to the playground.” I swallowed the sour taste in my mouth. I needed a drink now. We made plans for the next meeting and wrapped up the group call. I sighed and fell back onto my bed.

  When the phone rang again, I thought twice before picking it up. But once I realized it was my girl, Felicia Cole, I answered right away.

  “Hey girl, hold on a minute,” I said.

  Before I could get into the conversation, turmoil began to brew on the other side of my bedroom door. I was already on edge from the phone call with Kelly and her drinking police.

  I closed my eyes and tried to wait for the noise to boil over, but my thoughts traveled elsewhere.

  Andrea Yates and Susan Smith were mothers who had killed their
kids. And while I would never do it, these were the times that made me feel like I could halfway understand what had pushed them over the edge.

  When I couldn’t take it anymore, I finally hung up the phone with Felicia. The noise outside my door seemed to get louder and louder, until I could hardly hear myself think. I was pissed that I couldn’t even talk on the phone in peace.

  I closed my eyes, and prayed my husband, Kevin, would handle things. I was not about to go out there.

  “Ma! Kevin’s not doing what Daddy said,” my six-year-old son, Taylor, cried. His voice brought me back to the madness that was my life. Screaming kids, a lazy, penny-pinching husband, crazy family members, a secret relationship that some might consider beyond taboo, and not enough liquor to make them all go away. That was basically my life.

  I squeezed my eyes shut, and prayed that I’d suddenly develop the super power to vanish into thin air. I had been tucked away in my room, and wanted to kick myself. I should have had the foresight to bring a little taste in with me. My purse was either in my car or in the kitchen. So that meant I was dry and completely sober.

  “You stupid! Why you always gotta tattle?” Kevin Jr., my eight-year-old, screamed at his younger brother.

  It would be only moments before the fight spilled into my room, and really drove me nuts. I already felt like yanking out my own damn hair. My eyes focused on the digital clock on my nightstand. I had no idea what was taking eight-thirty, the kids’ bedtime during the week, so long to get here.

  Should I go or should I stay? I didn’t want to get in the middle of their squabble, but I also didn’t need it to escalate. If those little nuccas started throwing blows, one of them would end up hurt, and that would make matters worse for me.

  “Ma! Kevin said a bad word!”

  “No, I didn’t! Liar!”

  The next thing I heard were footsteps stomping toward my bedroom door. Suddenly, without a knock or a warning, the door flew open and the boys stood in my doorway, yelling and screaming in each other’s faces.